Life with Neuropathy

Hi, my name is John. When  you have neuropathy you must deal with so much more than the daily issues of life.  Sure, you have to handle things like getting around, getting dressed, making a living, caring for family and staying connected to friends. But you must also keep trying to find answers to your tough health problems.  There are always so many things to do and every single one of them is more difficult now with neuropathy. Tougher than ever before.   And then sometimes the unexpected happens. We learn something big, something bad. We're given answers that hurt.  It's like tripping over a tangled barbed-wire fence. One that you didn't see. All of a sudden nothing is going right. And certainly not at all the way you wanted things to go.  You don't know exactly when you'll stop falling. Hit bottom. Catch your breath.  And in such moments, you need time to think. To grieve, to weep, to pray.  We need silence. And an opportunity to process the hard, unexpected new

Hi, my name is John.   A nd I have CIDP  (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). When you have CIDP or any type of neuropathy you must  figure out how to deal with the daily issue of trying to move things both big and small while pushing a walker, or holding a cane, or ambulating unsteadily on your own two feet.  (Ah...for the good old days...)  Simply put, nothing is as easy as it used to be...   I've taken to tossing things like pill bottles, pillows, a TV remote, socks, towels, my phone or other items that like to fly. Food, not so much. But if it's carefully contained and the lid won't pop open, I might give that a try sometime. The bed and couch make nice soft landing spots!  This is definitely not the same as dropping things -- because my tremendous tossing efforts are totally intentional . Granted, sometimes what I'm throwing ends up on the floor so I guess that technically turns it into a dropped item. But against my will. That's for sure.  Wi

Hi, my name is John.   A nd I have CIDP  (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). When you have CIDP or any type of neuropathy you must  figure out how to deal with the daily issue of exhaustion. It can be crushing.  Everything is a challenge. Everything takes longer. Often much longer. Everything hurts and the tearing pain is a constant reminder of the many changes you're  facing. Constantly. Always. Every moment.  You can have neuropathy and still LOOK marvelous! People don't necessarily see that you even have a problem unless you have a walker or cane. And they certainly don't understand what it's like living with CIDP. Or realize that having constant pain makes you tired.   I used to be able to fall asleep the moment I flopped into bed. I was out. Completely. No problems, no issues. In fact, I've earned several Gold Medals in Napping.  Now when I try to sleep I can't quite let go and relax because of the pain surging through my limbs. Squeezing

Hi, my name is John.   A nd I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). When you have CIDP or any type of neuropathy you must often  figure out different ways to get where you want to go. I use the edge of the bed, sturdy chairs, dressers, and tables at times. I'm very creative. But mostly I rely on my walker to get anywhere. And by anywhere what I really mean is everywhere.  It was only a matter of time  before the calluses started to form. Painful hard spots of skin on my hands and palms developed. Like dry scales that protect me while using my walker.  I need it to lift myself up from a seated position. And I lean on it to support my upper and lower body when getting from place to place.  A lot of repetitive pressure has built up these stiff calluses.   The skin at the site is no longer soft or smooth. Probably never will be again. But that's what lotion is for, right?  Calluses aren't necessarily bad though. Anyone who has toughened up their finge

Hi, my name is John. A nd I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). When you have CIDP you must often  figure out different ways to get where you want to go. I use the edge of the bed, sturdy chairs, dressers, and tables at times. I'm very creative. But mostly I rely on my walker to get anywhere. And by anywhere what I really mean is everywhere.  Besides a walker, I discovered that I needed grab bars. Helping hands , so to speak.  I never thought I'd have to hire someone to put in grab bars for me in my own bathroom but frankly it was a good investment. That's because it allows me to continue to maintain some semblance of independence in this very personal arena. These sturdy bars help me when I need it most. They give me something to hold onto. A place of safety. I have lost so much mobility but being able to continue to wash up, brush and floss, take a shower, and use the toilet are important abilities to maintain.  How about you? What changes ha

Hi, my name is John. A nd I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). Thanks for reading these articles about my journey with neuropathy. You are an encouragement me to me.  Since I started writing this blog in September 2023 I've been honored to have over 5000 visitors come to the site. If you like what you read, please follow this blog and you'll be notified first when a new article is posted.  Resolutions can help push us to make changes and improvements. However, your personal list doesn't have to be anything formal. Each and every morning we have a new opportunity to ask more questions and try to find more answers to the health issues we're facing. And to stand up for ourselves as patients who deserve and need competent care.  CIDP, peripheral neuropathy and related afflictions are cruel diseases that exhaust and overwhelm you as a person. They wear out your body through indescribable, sporadic and extremely variable pain and discomfort.  And

Happy New Year 2024! Hi, my name is John. A nd I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ). When you have CIDP you must often  figure out different pathways to accomplish your goals. And sometimes you have to change those goals -- and pathways -- a lot or a little. Maybe even daily. I used to love playing the piano, but sitting too long is literally a pain in the rump. Sorry for being so blunt. But it's not comfortable to sit for a long time on a hard seat. Especially when my tangled nerves and stiff joint are constantly shouting at each other.     It's so relaxing to play old favorites once in a while. Especially Christmas classics during that special season. But how could I reach this goal of having a little extra comfort and support? What options did I have? And then it hit me.  I could try using an office chair instead of a low piano bench. Something with far more padding and arms, too. And the height was adjustable too. Such an obvious solution and yet

Hi, my name is John. A nd I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy ).  How did you feel when you got your Handicap Sticker for your license plate? Or maybe you chose a placard for your rear-view mirror. I got the latter because you can move it easily from vehicle to vehicle.  Honestly, I never thought the day would come.  Although I do remember when I was initially diagnosed with "peripheral neuopathy" -- the idiopathic kind. After a difficult nerve conduction test I was given the terrible news. "You'll just get worse and worse until you need a cane, a walker, and eventually a wheelchair... And there's nothing you can do to prevent it."   No encouragement. No hope. That was a very dark day.  But then I found a neurologist who confirmed after a spinal tap that I had CIDP. And  I learned that there were some options. Which is good. Full disclosure: I'm still waiting to try some of those options but I least I have a sparkle of hope tha

Hi, my name is John and I have CIDP (Chronic Inflammatory Demyelinating Polyneuropathy). Thanks for stopping by. To follow this blog, look above this article just to the right of the header and find the three small lines next to the Search button. Click on the lines and then find the blue Follow button and click on that. You're done !  ...So you know it’s going to be a Bad Day when you get a letter from your Neurologist’s office stating that your doctor is leaving (no reason or explanation given, of course) and that you need to find another neurologist either from within the small practice or somewhere else. This is with the knowledge that getting an appointment with a neurologist is about as difficult as getting front row seats at a Taylor Swift concert . Not the easiest thing to do.   Like so many other issues we must handle – we have to pivot frequently, deal with unexpected setbacks, and then try to figure things out as quickly as possible. Our health is at stake. And we often